Living Gifts

Living gifts - these are given to us through the experiences we shared with our loved one and that we can use to find a way to live beyond our loss. On May 6, 2009 I wrote:

I am still very sad because I feel such an empty space in my life without him; he was the love of my life and I will always carry him in my heart. But he also left me with many gifts...

One of the gifts Glen gave to me throughout our thirty three years together was his appreciation for music. He really loved listening to music. On June 21, 2009 I wrote:

Music was one of Glen’s passions - a place he could go and just enjoy the sounds. We had little games we played - who’s the artist singing - what’s the name of the band - what’s the name of the album the song is from...

Autumn of 2009 marked a turning point in my grieving - I began listening to the music Glen and I had shared. I listened to Dark Side of the Moon, and for the first time appreciated the sound that was Glen’s passion for music. On November 10, 2009 I wrote:

Listening to the CD’s we both listened to through the years does helps me have a “good cry” and to feel the loss and grief. I sing the songs we sang together, and will often play the CD twice so I can sing without the intense sadness that often accompanies my first listening of the song...I think that if I listen to the music Glen and I shared I can move past the grief...I know that it will be a very long time before I can move beyond my sadness...but this is a place to begin.

Glen’s gift to me of music helps me get through the days, weeks, months since my love died; one of the many gifts I carry with me on my journey of life without Glen.