grief - (gri:f) noun Of deep sorrow; a cause of sorrow or anxiety to come to grief to meet with disaster; to fail
dubious - (du-bi-ous) adj. doubtful, having doubts; of questionable value or truth; of uncertain outcome
dubious grief is at times, questioning the value of deep sorrow, but mostly dubious grief is about the uncertain outcome of deep sorrow.
You feel the deep physical pain - so you can not doubt the experience;
You have experienced the loss of your heart - and there is no doubt about the cause of your deep sorrow - how you have come to experience sorrow;
The character of your sorrow, shady, dark, is not in doubt;
Only the outcome of the sorrow is doubtful - will it ever end, this dark sorrow?
Will life continue or will the experience of deep sorrow cause your life to cease to exist?
