Waiting...

The pain from loss - this is what I fear most. Fear starts with the tests that uncover the terminal condition - cancer. Anticipating the loss stirs fear. The pain is physical, mental, emotional - a ripping to shreds, one piece at a time, kind of pain. I startle at my reflection in the bathroom mirror. The face staring back is the same sorrowful one I wore for months following Glen's cancer diagnosis and death. My sad eyes filled with deep pain. I see these same eyes now as my son Mike and I await the results of his PET scan.

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