Time moves both quickly and slowly, depending on where I am in my grief process. When I am “stuck” time slows down - during chemotherapy time in 2008, I wrote:
So much of our life now involves the (chemotherapy) cycle...(it) is out of my control - especially the results...my life is consumed with living by the cycles...
Time I am unable to control is slow - when I can do nothing but wait.
This is the place I occupy waiting for the third chemotherapy treatment...(and) the results of the treatments...I sit and wait...
After Glen died there were many times when I was stuck and could not deal with being alone without him. September 2009 I wrote:
The hardest days are on the weekend when I will just simply sit in my chair and think about how much I miss Glen..
When I take action, time speeds up. Processing all of my emotions during the year following Glen’s death helped me begin to become unstuck. In 2010 I wrote:
Trying to create a life for myself...this is what I am striving to accomplish...something I need to do if I am to be healthy and find some fulfillment in living...
Today the act of writing helps me stay unstuck and moving along my path of living.
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