2 years

Tomorrow marks two years since Glen died. One year ago I wrote:

I am sad but not filled with the pain of grief that was with me for so long...I will love him forever - as long as I am alive...I will always keep him in my heart - but I will also find a way to live without him. I will smile and laugh and live in spite of the empty space in my heart. I will go forward for whatever time is left to me in in this world.

This past year was difficult, but not as painful as the first year after Glen’s death. In August 2010, I wrote:

Time marches on - routines develop and replace old patterns. The pain from grief lessens but seems to engulf me at unexpected moments. Loneliness from the loss surrounds me, always...A year ago I was so deep in grief I thought I could never move on - yet here I am...I believe now that a life without my love, Glen, is not only possible but will be fulfilling.

Now, two years after Glen died, I live - I write about my grief process and revise my novel. I socialize with a small group of like minded women. I take classes at the local community college. I cry when sadness engulfs me - sometimes it’s a song playing on the radio, other times I feel the emptiness Glen once filled in my life. I continue creating my life.