Unacknowledged grief

When my husband was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer, the year of the DEATH WATCH was filled with contradictory emotions. Although it was the beginning of my grieving, it was unacknowledged grief. It was a time filled with alternating hope for a cure and increasing realization that the end of his life, our life, was immanent. I struggled, moving between fear of loss and unwavering support in his attempt to find a cure. I think this paralyzed me emotionally, leaving me unable to even talk with him about death. As his death drew ever closer, the pain of impending loss consumed me. How could I grieve when the person I loved struggled to stay alive?

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